i was hoping today would be a normal boring day, but i appear to have been sorely mistaken. i woke up at the crack of dawn as i usually do on a weekday somwhat reluctantly and went about begining my day the right way by taking a severe amount of allergy pills to try and stop my nose from running all day and driving me crazy. i washed my pills down with loose-leaf earl gray tea for m hit of caffine to energise me for the day. i diden't have any classes scheduled for first period, so i sat in the cafe for upwards of an hour scrolling 4chan and listening to music trying to entertain myself during the block of free time. amidst my scrolling my mind began to wander and i lost myself for a moment just thinking about all of the things that have gone wrong and right in my life and trying to see in what way anything can be fixed. one moment fresh in my mind from the day before. i went over to my buddy's house to build a party shack in a secluded part of the woods where we could be entirely certain that we woulden't be bothered by cops or other nosy sons-of-bitches, but the plan was stopped by him getting a high fever out of nowhere, so we went inside and started taking to people on ome.tv for awhile. in about five minutes he passed out from drinking cough medicine, so i was left alone talking to strangers. i spent the rest of the day having aweful akward conversations with people that were either drunk, high, or both. the people that weren't impared in some way or another were some of the most retarded people i had ever met up untill that point. what seemed like the first and only nice conversation that i had up to that point was with a girl about my age that lived in tennesee and was going back to school the next day, she told me about her thoughts and concerns about it, and i told her about my concerns about my life. out of nowhere she gets this disgusted look on her face, almost as if she has seen someone mixing shit into her brownies and said: "jeez your ugly, just shut up." that set the tone for the rest of the evening and today. after my space out from reality during my free period, i had algebra. my algebra teacher is an ugly, annoying 60-somthing alcoholic woman that just loves giving me shit for not knowing what the fuck im doing in math. we had a test today and i was struggling to finish in time, it was the end of the period, and i was stuck on a question due to my mind wandering fron various expirences in my life. she said that i had ample time to complete the test during class time, and without thinking i fired back with "fuck off i dont need to deal with your shit right now." that made her seem a mix of shocked and uncharacteristically sad, whitch made me feel a bit bad in the moment, but thinking about it now i don't. that woman has no right bitching at me about what i can and can't do when she gets paid to do exactly that. the rest of the day went slowly and uneventfully but the feeling of discontentment and fatigued anger still lingers on untill this very moment. i feel like a fag bitching and complaing about my feelings and exprences on the internet, but i couldn't be fucked to care at all about what anyone says at this point. night fellas.
12-20-25for the past several days i have been feeling sick, most likley from the mold in my house. other than the mold making me feel like shit, i have had a generally off feeling for the past few weeks. i don't have any idea why i feel like this, if its seasonal depression, if its a general shit feeling from interacting with people that i fucking despise, or my brain shit the bed from all the stress i put it under. yesterday i only stayed in school for about an hour, and in that time i almost got myself suspended. i was on my way to homeroom when i stopped to use the bathroom in one of the single stall bathrooms next to the gym, the vice principal was standing next to the door of the bathroom and make a snide remark twards me "isn't it a bit early to need to use the bathroom?" i didn't feel the need to respond to him because less than an hour ago i had a cup of tea and two glasses of water as somewhat of a breakfast. after a was done, i walked to home room and sat down for a while and was dissmissed to first period. in the first ten minutes of first period (which was biology) i had to use the bathroom again,so i got a pass and went. when i got to the bathroom the vice principal was standing in the same spot (even though it had been 20 minutes) almost as if he was waiting for me. this tme he said to me "again!? you were just in here, you must be regular!" atleast to me, that seems like a really fucking wierd thing to say to anybody. in that moment i used all of the restraint in my soul to not mention the the fact that he had cheated on his wife five times, all of which were with men. i dont think that he should be giving anyone any shit when they know something like that about you.
in the past lots of people have asked me how i know how to do all of the variuos things that i know how to do, the answer is that i just do. when your poor and have nothing better to do things just come to you, for example my friend asked me how i know how to take apart and put back together a computer in an hour, or how on god's green earth a retard like me has any idea how html works. its calld being poor and alone. thats how i learned how to build shacks in the woods. ideally i should get permits and permission from the government to build things but i am not a bitch, i just do shit anyway. i don't remember the government asking any of us permission to dickride israel as hard as they do, so i don't see any point in asking them permission to do shit. i don't know if its just me, but im sick of getting lied to and then told to just deal with it. its not my style to just deal with bullshit from cocksucking retards.
© 2026 Spazoidchannel - All rights reserved.